This is going to be a somewhat different post than the type I’ve been feeling lately. Yes I’m still sad…but let me put that aside for a moment in order to share with you something that I experienced yesterday and this morning. Over and over during readings of various types, and during my own meditations, …
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Dec 01
Holiday Blues
Post holiday blues, holiday blues…take your pick because this entire season is going to be ridiculously tough for me. I struggle more on the inside, so when you see me you may think I look fine. Or, if you know me well, you can see it just under the surface. I keep a lid on …
Nov 25
Give a Little Love
OK, you caught me. I’m suddenly humming the Judd’s song by the name of this blog post title. Well, that song isn’t quite the spirit of my thoughts, but it will do. I posted on Facebook a little bit ago that the world needs more love today, and that I thought that was what was …
Nov 24
Why do I get all the hard stuff?
Today I pulled three cards. When you do a three card spread, the first card (L) is the immediate past, the second card is the present, and the third card (R) is the immediate future. You know that time is funky, so they can all be happening nearly simultaneously depending on how fast your life …
Nov 22
Unhappy Blah
Well, today wasn’t very happy for me. There was nothing inherently wrong with it, but I am sad and lonely. I have much, and have some degree of gratitude for it. I have a good husband who I love dearly and have since the day we met. I have a nice home, clothes and food, …
Nov 21
Honesty
No idea what today’s theme is, unless I take a cue from the card I pulled, which was Honesty: I can’t always expect the truth from others, but I can expect it from myself. Can I? Because I’ve been trying to fake it until I make it and have kept believing that I could shake …
Nov 19
In Da Club
I had already written once, and never published it, about others who grieve. There is some horrible kinship with these people, and I mean horrible in the nicest sense of the word. It’s horrible because who in the hell wants to feel this way? NO ONE! Now that I am part of this awful club, …
Nov 17
Realizations
I had such a major Aha moment just now, that it is my topic for today. I had a nice weekend only to become mired in sadness last night and most of today. I have been wavering between deep thought, huge and hard tears, and feeling hollow within. Before when I felt pain in my …
Nov 14
The Feather
Good morning all! I am in pretty good spirits today. The sadness is still there, always in the background, but I have a little bit of a spring in my step. Things are shifting. Funny that I just wrote “sandness” instead of sadness. You know I don’t believe in coincidences. I was meant to see …
Nov 13
Balance, and Some Other Stuff
I have sooooo much that I want to say today. Like I am bursting with it, which is funny because I am generally just tired. I’m the sort of tired, maybe weary, that makes you wake up and think of things you have planned in 3 days that you decide you are too tired to …