Tag: #missingerin

Digging Deeper

Whew, last week was some week. Energetically I mean. If you are in any way sensitive, “hard” energy weeks are much worse than physically demanding ones. They wear you out, wear you down, and in some cases wear you thin. If you do the work that it asks of you, though, you will find a …

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Under the Exterior: Finding a Balance and Shouldering the Burden

I wasn’t exactly expecting to write today, but it seems that spirit just wanted to get it all out after reading a friend’s FaceBook post. This particular friend’s son died just about 6 months before Erin died, and it’s interesting how she posted exactly what I was feeling last night. Anyway, … The basis of …

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#Fail AKA Shame Sucks

You would think that I would learn, but in truth I have been so busy running from distraction to distraction that I have bypassed the clearance of a major life lesson over the last several months. But let me start at the beginning. Long ago (well, around 1998) I started down a path of Emotional …

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Upcoming Eclipse

Last week on Thursday, I cleaned out a drawer. That drawer contained two boxes of straws, as well as various plastic straws, and I cried as I did it. I also cleaned Erin’s kid silverware out of our silverware drawer. I had not actually touched it since we arrived home last year. I spent a …

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Back to Square One

Just when I felt as if I was finding my way, the universe had other plans. Over the course of the last few days I have not only started grieving Erin more so than I had been, but I also feel like once again I am being stripped to the core of my being. That …

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The Power of Regret

Regret (verb)…to feel sad or sorry about something that you did or did not do. How many times have you said to yourself “Oh I will regret that!” or that you have felt regret, but kept going the same direction you were? Probably many times. I know that I have over a lifetime. I regret …

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Let It Go

I wish that I could coherently describe, or even formulate in my brain, the phases of change that I have gone through just in the last 3 months. I know that a few weeks ago I was transmuting. Now, the definition of transmute is to completely change the form, appearance, or nature of (someone or …

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Focus on…Kindness

And welcome back to another episode of “Nicole cannot focus on one thing no matter how hard she tries.” Wow, I bet some scientist somewhere would have a field day with me these last few days. I have a million light bulbs going off at once, so many that I cannot even fathom what they …

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Back from Vacation and Full of Thoughts

So much to say! I just spent several days at the beach, and the days leading up to the trip were so busy I did not write much of anything. I did, however, process a lot. For those of you new to my terminology, I mean that I had a lot of stuff going on …

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Being Open to Receiving the Gift

I am writing with no title in mind this morning, but I know exactly what I want to say, which is a bit of a switch. I feel like I need to ease you into it, but why? Let’s just get right down to business. I’ve been working with a wonderful group of people in …

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