Nicole
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Sep 02
The Why’s
I wasn’t sure what I was going to write about today. I did not want to write about my tale of woe. I am tired of hearing it, but do understand that sometimes I am going to need to get it out. But I’m tired of hearing it. I have been sharing less of it …
Sep 01
Unchanged, Mostly
I managed to make it through yesterday and today, thanks to one of my cousins coming to visit me and keeping me occupied. That was nice, and it mostly kept my mind off of the elephant in the room. I have noticed that today I’ve developed a tremor in my right hand. Not only is …
Aug 31
Slow Path Forward
The good news is that something changed for me on Thursday of last week. I may have mentioned it. It is like the sadness and grief took on another tone, one perhaps more tolerable. I say that almost not believing it, because it isn’t any constant relief, but it is at least different. I have …
Aug 30
Musings Today
I am not sure why but as the day progresses, I notice I get deeply depressed. Maybe it is because in the course of a day, near the end of it is when a family sits down together. For dinner, to watch television, or play games, or whatever. My body, mind, and spirit knows at …
Aug 29
Fun Erin Video
Meow_Erin_Simone I still don’t know how to embed these things! Anyway, click the link and you will hear Erin and Simone meowing. We were likely on the way back from the movies, or maybe this past year’s Panoply. They always had a great time in the car, and sometimes sang the “Shine Bright Like a …
Aug 29
Crying for Others, Too
This morning I woke to look at FaceBook, and found that a friend and former co-worker’s son had died last night. He wasn’t a “little kid” but her son nonetheless, and I am very sorry for her. She came to Erin’s service and I immediately panicked, because I am not sure I can come to …
Aug 28
Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse
One of Erin’s favorite web shows was Barbie: Life in the Dreamhouse. You can find it at: http://www.barbie.com/en-us/videos/life-in-the-dreamhouse I have to admit that I liked watching this with her. It was completely silly, and they really captured the essence of Barbie and Ken’s personality (what you think it would be). I keep telling you Erin’s …
Aug 28
More Erin with Video
Woke up with the elephant on my chest again. I actually woke thinking of her several times during the night. I’m not up for watching this yet today, but it is one of my favorites to show you her personality. It was done in the backseat of the van sometime this past year (2014). She …
Aug 27
Stuff
Erin and Anna Kate’s favorite Barbies to play with. L to R: Joseph, Tiffany, Elizabeth, Sharpay, Abby, Hannah, Kelly, Lauren, and Tyler. They had an entire fictional storyline that they played with these guys. I will miss them, but thought Anna Kate would enjoy them more. Woke …
Aug 26
More Art
Some more artwork I found. I hope you can see the detail on this one. Simone Howley came and gave Erin a drawing book on the Thursday after she had her first surgery (Thursday July 24) I think. Anyway, when we came home I …