Musings for 1/29/2017

I hope TZ didn’t mind me sharing her quote. She has some great ones and I love whatever program this is that puts them into a graphic.

I have been reading divisive words all day and it has taken it’s toll on me. I’m really not sure why I continued reading, or replying, to some of the FB threads I have been on.

I always try to be nice even if someone has said something not nice because two wrongs don’t make a right. Some of the stuff I have read (not directed at me) has been so harsh it makes my heart hurt. Does no one understand being loving and kind? I’m starting to wonder. If you ever wonder why light workers and way showers get so burned out, picture a zombie movie where someone fought hard but then gets surrounded, pounced on, then eaten. That’s what it feels like right now. I know I’m not the only beacon in the world or even in my general area, and even if I’m just a candle, there are others. The thing is, it’s hard. The weight of the darkness is heavy and sometimes it completely blocks out the light.

As I watch people with excuses for being ugly to others, it hurts me. They use religion. They use their views on money, politics, race, you name it and they use it. And they justify being ugly to others and most of us just let them. We don’t say “Hey, that is not ok.” We don’t know how. We’ve been told if you can’t say something nice don’t say anything at all. We don’t want to see or hear the truth because it’s uncomfortable. It hurts, it stings, it disappoints. It can also be wonderful, but we’ve been conditioned to expect otherwise, and so we avoid truth. Just look at the recent “Alternative Facts” debacle. The truth sort of sucked so they made up truths, which as you know you can’t do. I know it is more palatable to the one telling false truths, but we as people have to decide if accepting “it” as truth is more palatable to us. Red or blue pill folks – it’s your choice and you have to make that choice.

I have struggled with FaceBook all day actually. I don’t like to unfriend people. I really don’t even like to unfollow them. I am accepting of most people out there and find something to appreciate in all of them, so I have a diverse group of friends. Maybe I held my own feet to the fire so long this morning so that I can finally make a decision to just unfriend some of those unkind people. Not the ones who are unkind on occasion, but the ones who are consistently unkind. Because you know what? If that’s how you are on FB that’s how you are. And that makes me sad, mostly for me because I wanted to like having you in my life even if it was just online. I really don’t like goodbyes at all, not even with people I just met, in case you wondered why I don’t like watching the door close. We are all One and connected. If you ever feel it, you will know that it’s not just a new age saying but truth and real. But here in 3D, the illusion of separation seems very real. That’s why being apart from someone you deeply care about hurts so much.

I have no immediate plans to unfriend anyone, and I still do not know why I had the odyssey that I did today. I know I don’t like this space that I am immersed in but am trying to go with the flow. There is always something to learn and profit from in a wisdom sense if you stay in the flow. But it’s not all fun and games. Today has definitely not been fun and games.

Without focusing on what I don’t want or what I’m against…which is really tough to do in most of our mindsets including mine…I am for kindness. I am for love. I am for equality. I am for strength and health and ease. I am for compassion. I AM, and so IT IS.

Love, peace, blessings, and Namaste. <3 <3 <3 <3 #missingerin and #LovingErin