Nov 15

Musings for 11/15/2016

Well that was intense! The Supermoon brought with it a lot of energy and it permeated everyone and everything on our planet. If you didn’t feel it, well, I don’t know how you didn’t feel it. Increased energies can manifest for you as just that, or it can be felt as anxiety, emotions, and irritation if you aren’t used to it.

Personally it made me tired. Very tired. I have been in a daze for about 3-4 days now and am trying hard to break out of it because I have stuff to do. I’m about to go out for a lunchtime jog and I’m not sure I’m up for it. But I have to wear dress clothes later in the week, and the roll on my abdomen reminds me that I need the jog. Wish me luck.

I have been wondering what the point is and have been very depressed. Look, until the day I’m with my girl again I will be depressed on some level. Some days are better than others obviously, but these past few weeks since Halloween have been hellish. That said, I was reminded yesterday why I haven’t made a transition in another area of my life that I have felt stuck in. It turns out I had the chance to make some behind the scenes changes happen, or at least be the catalyst for them. Those changes are, at the root, about equity and balance as well as ethics and integrity. I had no idea that I still had work to do there but I did or do, and so in understanding that I can stay a little longer in this space. I am sorry that I can’t be more specific but maybe one day I can.

This little microcosm in my life is indicative of the world stage where the old guard being forced to change or get the F out of Dodge. The old way(s) doesn’t work anymore because we the people demand change, we demand integrity and truth, and ethical behavior. So I am perfectly fine with stepping a little out of bounds in order to make that happen and am quite amused about it to be honest. Check and mate but in a good way – service to others.

There is so much going on in the world and in my world (internally) that I can’t seem to put much more to words. So wish me luck on my jog (Freudian slip? I initially wrote job.). It’s 30 minutes of “Is this over yet?” every time I exercise. Another small piece of the whole of my life.

Simply #missingerin today. Blessings.

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