Undercurrents…of ??? Many things. I see undercurrents everywhere these past few days and while there is progress, there is a lot of unseen happening all around us. That’s not news, because there always is, but what I see isn’t necessarily on the positive spectrum.
They upset me too, these undercurrents. And truthfully I don’t like it. I don’t like not being in control of being in balance, and having my heart chakra upset over things that really do not immediately affect my life. So why do I feel so passionately about some of this stuff? Well, more layers for me to clear in order to release judgments, pain, attachment, and go further into balance and the All That Is.
I know for some of you I am rambling aimlessly. Others will grok this in an instant. Ah, but now I have to get this all out.
Yesterday I read someone’s post, and I wish I had not read it at all. It basically stated that if you are asked to pray fro someone, and you send good vibes or anything but prayer, you clearly aren’t a Christian and your good vibes, etc. are not wanted or needed. And in addition, this person was mad about someone who did send good vibes. Wow. I really don’t know what to say. I didn’t want to have hurt feelings but I did. Nope, I wasn’t in any way part of the original conversation or the current one, in fact I hid it from my feed. Is my Love sent any less valuable than someone else’s prayers? I know it is not, but yeah I felt that way. I won’t withhold my Love from that person and may get chewed out for it later on, but still, the judgment hurt because my ego got hurt. It will pass, I will integrate this and learn from it. Thank you to the person who posted for the value, if you are reading, and know that I don’t want to judge you any more than you judged me.
Then there is the whole Mary Magdalene being accepted as an apostle by the Catholic Church. Well that’s what’s going around FB anyway, but that wasn’t what they said. They simply gave her the same “calendar year” apostle status by granting her a feast day. Progress yes, but do not kid yourselves, religion will not elevate a woman to a man’s status without being forced, and that doesn’t really achieve any loving goals. And again, why do I care? I really don’t, but it bothers me that so many people are parroting back the statement and it’s simply not what it seems. Now why does that bother me? I do not know. I’m almost ashamed to have even written about it. but that’s more than enough reason to look at it. Need to purge this from my system too.
There’s more than this brewing under the surface but honestly at this point I would just be bitching about other people, so I have to condense the emotions into what is really bothering me. If you didn’t figure it out yet, I don’t yet know. All of this stuff is a symptom of the real issue…whatever that is. When I figure it out I will let you know in case maybe it helps you.
I sense a long road ahead for everything that the intense energies of the solstice brought up. A very long road. I don’t know if that’s just for me or for others too. I’m almost too tired for it, but alas, I always comply with what the universe asks of me. Onward and upward I guess…
Blessings, Namaste, Nutsmaste, #missingerin and #LovingErin <3