I am afraid that I have waited too many days in between posts and now I have so much to say that I may have to break it up.
For those of you who wonder, yes, the past few weeks have become increasingly difficult. And with the advent of August 1, of course it brings back to me what was occurring this time last year in vivid, PTSD style movies. It hurts, and yet it’s real.
If you are also wondering “how come she seems to be doing so ‘good’?” I will tell you. I know that many of you who started following my thoughts after Erin’s body died don’t always understand my ideas, etc. And that’s ok. Honestly I love everyone just the way you are and wouldn’t change a thing! I also don’t ask you to believe in what I am saying, because it’s my truth and not yours. Do I always preface something radically different with words like those? It is occurring to me that maybe I do. I admit, sometimes I am not so brave to share my thoughts and knowings with others.
Erin has been coming to me in meditation for a long time. I don’t always talk about it, and maybe I haven’t talked about it at all. It’s because some of the things she says to me, people wouldn’t understand. She has been telling me that “Mommy, you will see me sooner than you think.” And my friends, she means in the physical. I don’t know how, when, where, etc. but I believe her. I found that other friends who believe in “life after death” were getting the same thing from their loved ones. It’s also been put out into the mass psyche with shows like Resurrection, The Returned, and somewhat in the new show called Proof. Even The 4400 had some who were returned from beyond the veil.
I won’t share details of our conversations at this point, but that is why I am doing so well, if you want to call it that. It’s because I believe in my inner knowing and in the brief visions of my child. So I miss her but I am just waiting to be reunited. So if you ever get a phone call saying “You won’t believe this!…” then you can know I am telling the truth.
By the way, I am not so egotistical that I think mine is the only one. I told you, others have gotten the same message. They probably aren’t sharing it for good reason because right about now, you are probably thinking I am totally nuts! LOL
As I was beginning to write this, I was writing the phrase “Erin died” and I heard a strong message to write “Erin’s body died.” Because that’s just what happened, her body died, but she did not.
So as you ponder that, I want to share with you a picture of her Elephant Ear plant. I mentioned not too long ago that it did not come up this year. I even dug down to find the bulb and it was rotted and pretty much gone. On Thursday I was feeling low, and I asked for a sign. When I left the house, I immediately saw the tiny new plant. What a nice sign.
I could go on and on about my thoughts on the etheric, DNA, sequencing a physical body from the ethers, how the Ascended Masters do it, the vibration of the planet rising from 3D upward, etc. etc. but that’s an article not my train of thought right now. Plus I don’t claim to know a damn thing about it other than I Believe. Period.
I also am not living my past story. I am no longer the Nicole of even the last year. I’m someone new. The same but different. You never lose 100% of the pieces of yourself but you do change some out. And guess what? My energy change has caused many “problems” with things around me either breaking or something similar. Erin’s laptop broke (it can be fixed!); my work computer isn’t playing ball with a system I need to access; I upgraded to Windows 10 on the computer I’m using now and my network connections got all F’d up (still not completely fixed!); China Cook messed up my dinner last night and Publix left out a $10 item from our bag; can’t access my bank account data right now so therefore I cannot pay my credit card bill; broke my iPhone screen; and other things of that sort. Honestly it’s been going on for about 2 weeks and I’ve forgotten half of what no longer works or had to be replaced! The old energy just is not able to go into the new energy, so whatever is tied to that has to break down or change.
On that note, if you are experiencing painful things in your life, or changes, just take a look at it and ask why it may have had to happen. All of it is teaching you something, and how you react to it is evidence of whether or not you passed the test so to speak. It’s ok if you didn’t, because if you know that you didn’t, that’s half the battle! You can try again next time. And there is always a next time.
I have noticed in hindsight that I have been given increasing levels of lessons all of my life in two areas: Loss and Control. I won’t bore you with the details, but had I been slapped with the mega-lesson of Erin’s body dying all at once, I would never have been able to withstand it. Everything was preparation for that to happen. Yes, I still believe everything happens for a reason according to the divine plan. And sometimes it sucks pretty badly.
There is much going on with the world and the people’s mass consciousness folks. Just roll with it and don’t be afraid. We live in exciting times and much is changing forever even as I type this. I am personally excited to see what it brings us, and I hope it’s all that we could ever expect.
Namaste, #missingerin, and blessings! <3