The Toe
I have been out of commission after having toe surgery. Here is before:
You can see how it is warped. I broke it in a very juvenile anger fit probably 20 years ago. While that “part” of me is completely evolved out of my body system now, I was stuck with the results! So I employed a local podiatrist to fix it. They sawed the damaged part of the bone away, straightened it, repaired tendons, and stuck a pin in the end, which I will keep for 6 weeks. I guess I find it interesting, so I’m posting the “after” picture from today, my first follow up appointment:
At least it doesn’t hurt too badly.
I’ve learned some interesting things too. First, my body vibration does not do well on narcotics. I only took them less than one day due to the nausea. It took more than that to get back “awake” again too, which wasn’t nice. Also, I don’t really have that much pain. Again – it’s the raised vibration that positively affects my physical body. It’s nice to have a positive effect after so much fatigue and other negative stuff! Third, while I couldn’t see that incision under my bandages until I was at the doctor today, that’s exactly what vibrated when I used my Vogel-like crystal wand on it. I kept wanting to point it at the toe, but the tingling was at that incision. Yes, I’m stubborn. But I also never cease to be amazed.
On that note, if anyone knows of a moderately priced (real) Vogel wand, I would love to hear about it. I have limited funds, but the wand is on my must have list.
I go back to work tomorrow but hope to continue writing. Of course, I have been off 5 days but couldn’t write under the influence of that one day’s worth of narcotics!
Blessings,
Anna
911
Do not forget that 911 was a test in compassion. The events of this date were not about Muslims or the Middle East. They were about extremists in many categories who would rather see war and strife than an outpouring of compassion. They did not get their wish, even though our surroundings become more full of fear mongering on each passing day.
That said, I awoke today – 9-11-11 – at 9:11. Of course I saw the significance! While in numerology both 9 and 11 are positive type numbers, the significance that 911 has brought to our reality is that of emergency and dire circumstances. It says, stop and pay attention – something is not right here! Well isn’t that appropriate for the events of 9/11? Of course it is. Just dig deeper, and look at it from a point of detachment and you will see.
Be safe today folks, and be as compassionate as you can muster in times of strife. When you open your hearts, you will always pass the test, no matter what it may be.
Peace and Blessings,
Anna
X Class Flares Headed Our Way
As someone else said today, don’t be scared, be prepared. Ok, a little cliche but still a good reminder.
Thanks to DAHBOO7 for this one. If you haven’t visited his YouTube channel yet, you are missing out.
Today has been an energetically down day for me so I’m not very talkative. Enjoy the video.
Anna
Out in the Ethers
Ethers?
Well I am definitely “out there” today, having a tough time interacting with this world that they call 3D reality. I actually feel spacey, as if I’m floating around outside of my body. It makes me wonder just how much our reality has shifted since yesterday.
Someone at work just told me that “outside” – meaning outdoors – gave him a weird vibe. I went out and when I felt with my inner vision I saw pink streaks in the sky. As we stood and talked, we had some crow visitors squawking at us each time we’d get into a real conversation. LOL I do not remember what the symbolism is for pink or for crows, but something is definitely up.
Hearing the Call
My work friend talked about the concept of balance and how he’s figured out that if he doesn’t walk his intended path, he will have upheaval in his life. He’s not quite ready for more upheaval so decided to get his tail in gear from what he said. Just this past weekend another friend was telling me how she feels the urge to learn all about metaphysical things in a way she hasn’t in years. I find it interesting that this is occurring for so many at this time. It’s interesting to me too that I’m seeing it right around me.
Another work friend and I were talking after lunch today, and neither she nor I can “feel” past the November time frame. There is a lot out there for you to read regarding this October – reply back if you don’t know what I’m talking about. Either something is going to happen or it is a nexus point, we decided, and it’s both scary and exciting. Ever heard be careful what you ask for? Well, I’ve been asking for this ascension for so many years, but the unknown can make even the best of us a little afraid.
Stay in your integrity and service to others and if it’s truly in your heart, you can’t go wrong. This is the stuff that “protects” us from what may come. Everything is not as it seems, but make sure that you are clear within yourself.
Peace and blessings,
Anna
RIP Butch
Well this post is a more personal post than usual. Butch, one of our shelter kitties we’ve had less than a year, had to be euthanized this morning. He was so sick, and nothing I or anyone else did to heal him was working. We will miss you Butch! You were a real sweetheart!
On that note, a special thanks to M. C. if you’re reading. Your healing efforts and empathy helped him to get through the weekend feeling better than I think he would have without you.
I also had a rather interesting experience myself, last night, as I made a last attempt to draw the poisons out of his system. I had the experience of watching my smokey topaz faceted wand (not a vogel, but close) literally crack, get pock marks, and go totally opaque on the large end to about half way through. It was a big boost in my confidence in my abilities to be a healer. Healing is something I feel compelled to do, but it’s not my “thing” or specialty. So anyway, I noted this because it’s important to share our experiences so that others may gain from them. Hopefully someone will gain from Butch’s short time with us. I know we did.
Anna
Proof in the Pudding
I posted an article last week called Peeling the Onion, and it’s awesome when you get additional confirmation that you’ve in fact made a huge energetic leap. Just today I’ve had the opportunity to witness it again with an issue in my personal life (details kept personal to protect others), where I was able to approach a very sensitive situation with detachment and with the voice of my higher self, not the old 3D Nicole that has prevailed in the past. Kem (higher self) said “Just let me handle it.” And I did, and I wasn’t triggered into a crying screaming fit. Hooray!
I didn’t really have too much more to say today other than perhaps War Damn Eagle (Go Auburn!), but thought it was important for anyone out there experiencing emotional clearing issues to see there IS light at the end of the tunnel! Damn, sometimes it takes years to see it but there is light! It feels so good just to see the results of all of this work – I can’t really put it to words.
Hang in there people. If I can do it so can you!
Anna
Intense Week
This has been a rather intense week for me. I had a big energetic jump which has left me feeling a bit ill. Sometimes when your physical body isn’t quite there, it tends to make you nauseated and tired. Today I also have a headache. You’ve gotta love ascension symptoms!
Also, as I posted, the websites both got hacked. I am astounded – never thought that would happen to me. Sort of makes you feel violated.
And Butch, our cat, is ill. Sort of came from out of nowhere. I have to wonder if it’s his exit strategy with things heating up so much in the world. Did you read about the earthquake in Alaska today? Animals can really feel what’s going on more than we can. At any rate, we are in a very strange time/space right now. I think it’s taking a toll on everyone, even if only their subconscious knows.
At least I am writing articles again – see the Emotional Clearing section in the menu. I’m also working with a local woman tomorrow doing some teaching and body work I think. That is something I have literally shunned for so long. For those of you who aren’t empaths, connecting with another person’s energy is sometimes very draining. When I connect, I get sucked in. So I just don’t connect. If you’ve ever had me do any work on you, then you know I prefer to do it long distance and not by phone. Just the phone connection is overwhelming! On a daily basis I just keep up a shield. I know – you’re supposed to let it flow through you, but sometimes easier said than done. I’m as stubborn as a goat in some ways 
That’s all for now. My thoughts have turned back to Butch so I’m going to end this post here with these thoughts – if you are suddenly feeling like there is something more out there, yes, you are being called to your true life’s work. Now get off your arse, and go get it.
anna
Peeling the Onion
Another thing Kem wants me to write about is peeling the old onion – better known as emotional clearing. The onion, of course, is a metaphor because there are many layers. So many that you will be surprised one day as you think “Oh, I thought I cleared that one?”
Again, a forum post brought this one up. And we send a big thank you to the person who posted – this is one of the reasons that we ask people to post about themselves. Not only can you seek guidance, but it actually helps to bring things to light for others. It is always a valuable exchange.
Using the Keys of Compassion as an example, you don’t just “clear an issue.” You may clear a big chunk of an issue, but until you actually hit the “root layer” of an issue, you aren’t finished with it. One of the first issues that I began with so many years ago when I bought my copy of the Keys, was childhood angst over my relationship with my mother. There are a lot of facets to this one and a lot of layers. Due to other interrelated relationships, there were multiple triggers. The first go around, I removed a great burden! And yes, I thought, “Whew, I am glad I am done with that one!”
But alas, sometime soon afterward I found that the bad feelings were triggered again. I was confused and sought guidance. And I understood from a mental perspective. But I admit it was hard to understand just why, after the intensely hard and painful work I had done, why isn’t this one finished?
It has been many years since I have actually ran someone through the Formula of Compassion. After awhile, you sort of just do it internally and automatically in nearly an instant. And my triggers on this particular relationship have lessened due to continued work. But guess what? They are still there! I am at a new stage where I actually am feeling those old feelings quite deeply again. This time, I am a lot more detached and my ego shards are nearly gone, so I feel much differently. And guys, this is the key…I could not have allowed myself to feel this deeply again UNTIL I hit this stage of the game. I am stable. I am detached. And I am able to feel the feelings, but look upon them much, much differently.
The point is you will peel the layers only as quickly as you are willing, and only as quickly as you are able. I dove head first into emotional clearing, but some of the layers I just wasn’t able to access until much later due to what I mentioned above. I believe that a healthy state can be achieved by both clearing your issues YOURSELF, and by the tweaks and alchemy that you are all working with on this “program.” It takes a holistic approach to both get rid of the gunk and change your patterns. Sorry, but the hard work is necessary and you can’t move ahead carrying all of that baggage! Your light body just isn’t dense enough to hold it.
Hopefully this helps!
Anna
Putting Yourself Out There
I moderate a few boards here and there, and one lady’s recent post mentioned that she doesn’t post much due to “the way she is responded to.” Kem wanted me to write an article on this, because it is a fatal error.
Just this morning I was listening to an old 80′s song called “Love My Way” by the Psychadelic Furs. I love that song, always have. But today, the last verse of the song struck me and I paid attention. Didn’t know why at the time though! The verse says “You can never win or lose, if you don’t run the race.” I mulled it over, actually getting stuck on the 3d meaning of “win or lose.” Then I realized there was a deeper meaning I didn’t get and I let it go.
Now I see – by not posting, participating, doing – you are not running the race. It’s a safe way to be no doubt, because if you don’t get out there you cannot fail, you cannot fail publicly either. But you can’t grow, you can’t run the race, and you sure as hell can’t finish the race.
For those of you who are also hung up on word definitions and subtleties, it’s a metaphor. If it makes you feel better to substitute something better for “win, lose, and race” go for it. Just ensure you get the concept.
This must be a hot topic lately, because another lady on the same board also mentioned her way of controlling things is to keep it inside and not discuss with others. See where we’re going with this one?
Whatever the trigger, this goes directly back to EGO. Some teachings speak of the inner child, but I tend to think that this is more of an ego response than inner child. Yes, the inner child can cease to become fun and become fearful, but it’s integrated into us. The EGO, on the other hand, is not. It’s external merkaba programming that is not natural. It can be a defense but in more ways it hurts than helps. It can be removed, shattered, eradicated. Guess what? When you mess with it, it hurts you!! Shame, guilt, anger, embarrassment – all of those negative emotions come up. It tells you you were bad to put yourself out there, and if necessary it tells you what a piece of shit someone else is and incites anger, hate, distrust, etc. The EGO is there to prevent growth and keep the status quo, which is your programming. More specifically, it’s your slave population programming. It’s even part of the elitist programming – they have masters too!
I personally have had to face many ugly things about myself. They were all true. I am not proud of them, but I accept them as they are now and I also accept that for some of them, I am still paying a karmic price. It’s mine to pay, so I’m ok with it. At the time they were brought to my attention, it wasn’t so nice. Back in the “old days” when I was an active member of the old Nibiruan Council forums, where the main purpose was emotional clearing, it got pretty ugly out there. It wasn’t for the faint of heart. I stuck with it and I grew tremendously.
I’m also not talking about general disrespect such as anything racial, calling someone a “bitch” or anything else, but true criticism that doesn’t involve appearance or something equally irrelevant to the topic. Yes, it may have a tone of irritation in it because we are beings of emotion! All of us! Does the emotion make it any less true? No, it doesn’t. But if something does get rather heated, both parties may need a short break to get their heads on straight.
I work with people every day in my job, and I directly supervise currently about 37 people. All of them are 3D “normal people” who have egos and idiosyncrasies. I mention this because I get to put my skills to the test on a daily basis with 37+ different personalities. Each of them needs a different response, and even the same person needs a different response type over multiple events. Basic emotional clearing tells you this, because when everything is fuzzy bunnies, people do not change what they are doing. Some do not change until things get very ugly and uncomfortable. That seems to be a pattern of human nature, perhaps even a universal pattern.
So folks, if you do not put yourself out there to “win or lose” you will not do either. A safe choice, but then let me ask why are you on this path? Have you given up? Or do you simply wish to be blissfully ignorant and 3D “happy?” Put things into perspective and then accept what comes. But do try your best – whatever it is that you may do.
Anna & KEM